To me, London is the Beatles performing atop the roof of Apple Corps. It’s Virginia Woolf holing up with the rest of the Bloomsbury group to discuss the curiosities of human behavior of the day. It’s Jean Shrimpton and David Bailey walking arm-in-arm down Carnaby Street, looking in the boutique windows of Mary Quant and Ossie Clark. It’s been the home and hideaway to Keats and Shelley, Shakespeare and the Sex Pistols. The birthplace of some of the most progressive thinkers in politics and poetry, London is filled with history and yet it is always on the brink of something new.
I have travelled to London twice with my family over the past few years, and though the time we spent there was short, it gave me memories that I still revisit regularly. London was the most wonderful paradox for me - I felt simultaneously that I was such a little part of that living, exciting city, and yet there was a part of me that felt like it was a homecoming. In a way, London has always been my home. I'm excited to be given the chance to live there for six months. I have a chance to be like and live like the British babes I so admire. Sure, the times have a-changed since the days when Julie Christie was the 'Darling' of the town, and Pattie Boyd and Jane Asher hung on the arms of their Beatle boys, but there's such magic in that city that I hope will rub off on me. I always knew that I was going to study English, and become a writer of some sort. It was never a question. Some people believe they were born to be doctors or lawyers; it was the fate Brahma wrote on their foreheads upon birth. But I always knew I wanted to be a writer. I have journals upon journals filled with my juvenile short stories, poetry, and lyrics, all ranging from the ages six through sixteen. A Dolly Rocker Girl’s literary canon, of sorts. During high school, perhaps there was a part of me that was caught up with the romanticism of it all, imagining myself as a modern-day Sylvia Plath (minus the part about the oven) or Colette (minus the lesbian tendencies). It seemed like such a gorgeous idea to a bored suburban teenager – I would become an artiste, someone who was far more intellectual and worldly than any of my more plebian classmates. But I’ve grown past the mere idea of pursuing English as a career post-university, I want now to make it a reality. Studying in London will be the most wonderful opportunity for me in working towards my goal. To live in a culture where my favorite books were penned and plays performed, I cannot help but hope to soak up some of the creative energy of my surroundings. London offers itself so much to exploration – not just of its surroundings, but also exploration of your own self. All of the dreams I have for my future are intertwined in one way or another, and all of their roads lead back to the one place where I can grow and become who I want to be: London.
My girls: Pattie Boyd, Jean Shrimpton, Jane Birkin, Marianne Faithfull, Julie Christie, and Twiggy
Title: from "Cocksucker Blues" (The Rolling Stones)

10 comments:
That is so exciting!! I will be in London studying abroad this summer and I cannot wait.
I know exactly what you mean when you say that London is your home, ever since I can remember I have been an Anglophile. I'm pretty sure that not only was I born in the wrong time but, I was born in the wrong country! I hope to one day have a home in England. I understand everything that you said in this post, it pretty much sums up why I love London!
Also, you are such a wonderful writer. I always look forward to what you have to share & I would love to read some of your short stories!
Awww, congrats! That's exactly how I felt when i got accepted to uni in London almost four years ago! Been an Anglophile all my life as well and at 5 refused to speak to my nanny in anything but an English accent for three weeks!London is everything I wanted it to be and more! I'm impatiently waiting until the end of this month so that I can apply for my new visa and go back asap!
Good luck with your courses and maybe we'll run into one another on Carnaby Street! :)
Kirby - Thank you so much for the compliment. I feel the exact same way about your site. It's one of the ones that I really look forward to reading :)
It's always so amazing because so much of what you say is so insanely on-point to how I feel too! (Not to sound creepy...) "I'm pretty sure that not only was I born in the wrong time but, I was born in the wrong country!" This is exactly that same thing for me as well.
Dolly the Bird -
I'm so glad I've found another Dolly out there in the world! And it sounds like we don't just have our names in common, but also our frustrating (to others, endearing to us) penchant for British accent as youngins.
If you end up back in London at the start of 2012 (too far ahead for me to think too much about haha), we should perhaps arrange a shopping excursion on Carnaby. In any case, I'll have to pick your brain about your favorite places to shop!
wow that´s so funny and weird. eventhough i wasn´t an anglophile at such a young age as the two dollys, i feel exactly the same way about london and england. was there the first time when i was 15 and knew instantly that this was my city, i even sorty knew my way around.
i know we all share the feeling of being born 40 years to late, but isn´t it strange that we share the same affinity for the same city in such a natural way?
if you believe in reincarnation, maybe this meens something, maybe we should start something.
dolly rocker girl i know you´ll love to live there, i won´t even try to hide how jealous i am :D i would go to london in a sec, but unfortunately also including recent events over there, i cannot afford it. but i could come over and visit!
I’m a born and bred east London girl but It’s so weird because I would love to live in America! But people in America want to come here?!?! :) it’s so funny.
I hope you have a great trip!!! and London can be scary so be safe.If you need any help don't hesitate to ask :) xxx
That is so fantastic that you will be studying in London! I'm sooo jealous. I'm hoping to go to London as well in a year or two. And I know exactly what you mean by feeling like you belong there and obsessing about being a British "bird." ;) I'm exactly the same way! I dream about a life living abroad and escaping my suburban life. Anyway, you will have the time of your life!
I call my mom mum! And I would love to live in London, You are so lucky:)
congratulations!
and i am so addicted to this blog
much love M x
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Your writing is superb... encore. Happy future... cheers!
Amy
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